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  • Sahel: Water does not become bitter without cause

     

    Ruwa baya tsami a banza:

    Water does not become bitter without cause.

    There is a reason for everything.

    The Sahel throughout history has been known for many things. To the historically inclined, it is the region that produced empires like Wagadu, Mali and Songhai, and cities of world renown like Timbuktu. Today, the Sahel represents something else entirely: instability, as it faces climate variability, insurgency, and fragile governance.

    2020 Analysis of the regional crisis. Source https://erccportal.jrc.ec.europa.eu/ECHO-Products/Maps#/maps/3330.

    Stretching from Senegal in the west through Mali, Burkina Faso, Niger, northern Nigeria and onward to Chad and Sudan in the east, this 6,000 kilometre zone has produced more military coups in the last decade than anywhere else on earth. Since 2020 alone: Mali twice, Guinea, Burkina Faso twice, Niger, and Sudan, the latter embroiled in a devastating conflict between the Sudanese Armed Forces and the Rapid Support Forces that has already killed hundreds of thousands and displaced millions. The media dubbed it the coup belt. Security analysts called it the Sahel crisis. Outside powers, Russia, France, the Gulf states, the United States, manoeuvred for influence in a fracturing landscape.

    What almost nobody asked, at least not with any seriousness, was the historical question: what was here before?

    Not merely before the coups. Before the colonial borders that manufactured these states, before the French administrative systems that shaped their governments, before the extraction economies that defined their relationship to the world market.

    What was the political and economic life of this zone when it was organised according to its own internal logic, by its own institutions, on the basis of its own material conditions? That is what I seek to explore through this platform.

    This is not out of a sense of reactionary nostalgia. You cannot understand what a place has become without understanding what it was, what forces transformed it, and which of those transformations built capacity and which destroyed it. Northern Nigeria today is associated, in the global imagination and in too much of the Nigerian imagination, with poverty, insurgency and dysfunction.

    Boko Haram. Bandits. The caricature of Sharia law deployed by politicians as a tool of control. Coups next door. Violence and weapons spilling across borders drawn by colonial administrators through the middle of communities, trade networks and political relationships that had existed for centuries before European powers decided they had the right to divide the continent at a conference table in Berlin.

    These things did not come from nowhere. To understand where they came from, we have to look at the land itself, how it shaped the people, and how the people shaped it.

    The Shore of the Great Sea of Sand

    Orthographic Map of Africa showing the Sahelian Zone. Source : wikimedia commons. Author : Flockedereisbaer

    Sāhil in Arabic means coast or shore. In the imagination of the Arab geographers of the Middle Ages, the Sahara was not a wall. It was a sea. The camel earns its nickname, ship of the desert, honestly. It allowed merchants to make the months-long voyage across that vast expanse, linking the Mediterranean world to West Africa. The Sahel was the southern shoreline of that sea.

    A shoreline is not a remote frontier. It is the first point of arrival. Goods land there, get taxed, get redistributed. The people who control the access points accumulate wealth and build institutions. The cities that grew along this shoreline, Timbuktu, Gao, Agadez, Aoudaghost, and later Katsina and Kano, were structural consequences of that position. Constantinople sat at the crossroads between Europe and Asia and extracted enormous wealth from that geography for over a thousand years. Timbuktu sat where the gold and salt trades intersected and grew exceptionally wealthy, connecting North Africa and the Mediterranean to the productive interior of West Africa. Whoever controlled such a position could tax trade moving in both directions, access goods otherwise unavailable, and hold a structural advantage over competitors. Geography does not determine history, but it sets the terms on which history unfolds.

    The Sudan: Climate, Geography, Ecology

    The African landscape is a varied one. Moving southward from the Sahara toward the equator, rainfall increases steadily and the vegetation responds in distinct bands. Each band runs roughly east-west across the continent, with the rainfall gradient running north-south.

    To understand what this means in practice, follow an imaginary merchant setting out from Sijilmasa, the great Moroccan terminus of the trans-Saharan trade, sometime in the 11th or 12th century. He has loaded his camels with slabs of Saharan salt, bolts of North African cloth, and copper ingots from the Mediterranean world. His destination is the markets of the Sudan. His journey south will carry him through several worlds in succession, each one wetter, greener, and more densely populated than the last.

    The northernmost inhabited zone is the Sahara itself: less than 150 millimetres of rain annually, vast, arid, traversable only with knowledge accumulated over generations. The Tamashek, Tubu and Amazigh peoples hold this world. They know where water sits beneath the surface and how the seasonal winds move. Our merchant cannot cross without them. He pays a toll and hires guides, folding the cost into the price his goods will command at the other end. The Sahara is dangerous and expensive, which is precisely why the goods that cross it are worth crossing it for.

    After weeks of travel, the landscape shifts. The hard gravel plains of the deep Sahara give way to the Sahel proper, where annual rainfall runs between 150 and 600 millimetres. Semi-arid steppe. Thorny acacia scrub. A landscape suited to pastoral herding and seasonal movement, in most areas not adequate for settled cultivation. The few cities that exist here become all the more important for their scarcity. At Taghaza, our merchant loads additional blocks of rock salt, a commodity mined there by enslaved labourers under brutal conditions. Salt is so essential to life in the agricultural south that it commands near its weight in gold at certain markets. That simple fact drives the entire commercial logic of the Saharan world. At Timbuktu or Walata, he enters a different order of things entirely: a city of scholars, merchants and administrators sitting at the junction of the desert routes and the productive Sudan. He exchanges his salt and Mediterranean goods for gold, kola nuts and leather goods from the south. He hears news of the markets further inland. He weighs whether to press on or turn back.

    He presses on. The landscape rewards his decision. Trees thicken. Grass grows tall between them. The soil deepens. The dusty, pale earth of the Sahara gives way to the red laterite soil familiar to anyone who has spent time in West Africa, rich and dense underfoot. Annual rainfall here ranges between 600 and 1,200 millimetres. The growing season runs long enough for reliable grain cultivation. Millet, sorghum, cotton, groundnuts. Cattle graze across the open woodland. Horses are kept and bred. Populations concentrate in numbers impossible further north. Cities grow large and stay large because the surrounding land can feed them across many consecutive years without exhaustion.

    This is the bilād al-sūdān, the land of the black people, the broad belt of productive savanna the Arab geographers named and described across centuries of writing. In modern ecological terminology it carries the name Sudanian savanna, though the medieval Arabic name carries more historical weight. This is the zone our merchant has been trying to reach from the moment he loaded his camels in Sijilmasa. These markets, these consumers, and this world were the reason he carried everything across the desert.

    He has arrived in the agricultural heartland of West Africa.

    Further south still, the Guinea savanna thickens into closed forest, where rainfall exceeds 1,500 millimetres annually, the canopy closes over, and the tsetse fly kills cattle and makes cavalry warfare almost impossible. Powerful and institutionally sophisticated states flourished in this region: Oyo, Benin, Asante. Each connected to the same continent-spanning trade network through chains of regional merchants and intermediaries. Our merchant will not venture this far. His goods travel the rest of the way through other hands, through the networks of Mande-speaking Dyula traders and Hausa fatake who specialised in exactly this kind of relay commerce. He sells to them, and they carry his salt southward to people he will never meet.

    What Each Zone Produces and Why it Matters

    Salt commands near its weight in gold at certain markets.

    Salt from the Sahara. Robin Taylor, CC BY 2.0, via Wikimedia Commons.

    The Saharan mines at Bilma, Kawar, and Taghaza produce a mineral that the agricultural populations of the Sudan belt cannot produce for themselves in adequate quantities. Salt preserves food, seasons it, and maintains the biological functions of people and their animals. Without access to it, agricultural communities weaken and decline. This biological necessity is what drives human beings to organise caravans of hundreds of animals across one of the most hostile environments on earth, month after month, generation after generation.

    Gold flows in the opposite direction. The forest zone of West Africa contains some of the richest alluvial gold deposits in the pre-modern world, worked by Akan-speaking miners in what is today Ghana and Côte d’Ivoire. That gold fed the monetary systems of medieval North Africa and Europe. It funded the Fatimid Caliphate. It built the great mosques of Morocco. European monetary expansion from the 13th century onward depended substantially on West African gold long before Europeans had any direct access to West Africa at all. The forest zone also produces kola nuts, a mild, bitter stimulant that became the social currency of Muslim West Africa wherever Islamic law prohibited alcohol. Kola travels without refrigeration, remains potent for weeks, and carries ritual significance at ceremonies from Senegambia to the Niger Delta. Hausa merchants built entire trading empires on the kola circuit alone. The ancestors of Nigeria’s richest Man Aliko Dangote were Agalawa merchants who grew wealthy through the Kola trade.

    Cotton cloth and leather goods move in every direction. The Sudanic region weaves and dyes cloth that North African and Saharan buyers prize. It tans hides into leather goods, sandals, saddlebags and harnesses, whose quality the Mediterranean world cannot match from its own resources.

    None of these zones is self-sufficient. The pressure toward exchange is structural, not incidental. It does not require any particular ruler to decide to encourage trade. It arises from the complementarity of the zones themselves, from the fact that survival and prosperity in each depends on what the others produce. The political consequences of this logic are enormous. Controlling the transit points between zones, taxing the movement of goods across ecological boundaries, is one of the primary mechanisms of wealth accumulation in pre-modern West Africa. The empires that rise and dominate this region do not, for the most part, produce the commodities they trade. They sit between the producers and the consumers, and they tax the passage.

    The Empires of the Sudan: Power Built on Position

    Map of the Wagadu empire. Luxo, CC BY-SA 3.0 <http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/>, via Wikimedia Commons

    The empire the Arabs called Ghana, and which its own people knew as Wagadu, built the first great demonstration of this logic. Rising in the western Sudan, probably by the 4th or 5th century CE, Wagadu sat between the gold-producing regions of the south and the North African merchants hungry for that gold. The state did not mine the gold. It taxed it.

    The Arab geographer Al-Bakri, writing in 1068, recorded the precise mechanism. The king of Wagadu levied a tax of one dinar of gold on every donkey load of salt entering the country, and two dinars on every load leaving it. He charged five mithqals on a load of copper and ten mithqals on a load of finished goods. Gold nuggets found in the mines belonged entirely to the crown. Private citizens could trade gold dust freely, but the crown entirely monopolised nuggets, which could be used as money and accumulate political power. Al-Bakri described the king’s court audience: the ruler sat in a domed pavilion surrounded by horses wearing golden halters, dogs wearing golden collars guarding his doors, and ten pages standing to his right carrying shields and swords decorated with gold. Behind him stood the sons of subordinate kings, their hair interlaced with gold.

    This is not just for the sake of flexing, although that played a part. It is a public display of the fiscal power the state extracts from its position in the trade network. The gold on those horses and dogs and sword hilts passed through Wagadu’s markets and Wagadu’s tax offices. They represent accumulated transit fees, turned into symbols of authority.

    Wagadu extended its reach from Takrur in the Senegambia region east to the Niger, controlling the western trans-Saharan routes for several centuries. Its decline came gradually from the 11th century onward, through a combination of Almoravid pressure, internal rebellions, and the progressive southward shift of gold-producing communities beyond its reach. There is scholarly debate today about whether Almoravid pressure was military or commercial and how decisive a role it played in Wagadu’s decline.

    Mali

    Its successor took the same logic further and built something larger.

    The Mali Empire of the Mansas reached from the Atlantic coast to the Niger bend at its height in the 13th and 14th centuries, incorporating the gold-producing Bambuk and Bure fields directly into its territory rather than simply taxing their output from a distance. This shift from transit taxation to direct control of production represented a significant intensification of the model. Mali did not abandon the transit fees; it added productive control on top of them.

    The wealth this generated was genuinely staggering. In 1324, Mansa Musa, the ruler of Mali, performed the hajj to Mecca and passed through Cairo on the way. He travelled with a retinue reportedly numbering in the tens of thousands and distributed so much gold in Cairo and along the route that he single-handedly triggered an inflationary crisis in the Egyptian gold market. Contemporary Arabic sources record that the price of gold in Cairo had still not fully recovered twelve years later. One man’s pilgrimage gift-giving destabilised a regional monetary economy for over a decade. That is what the structural control of the Sudan’s gold output looked like in practice.

    Mansa Musa Depicted on the Catalan Atlas, Abraham Cresques, 1375. public domain via Wikimedia Commons.

    Under the Mansas, Timbuktu became the intellectual capital of the Sudan. The Sankore Mosque and its associated scholarly networks attracted students and teachers from across the Islamic world. Mali’s trading diaspora, the Wangara and Dyula merchants who spread out from the empire’s commercial networks, carried Islam southward and eastward into regions the empire itself never directly controlled. They built mosques in market towns across the savanna, established the contract forms and credit mechanisms of Islamic commercial law, and created the social infrastructure that later Islamic reform movements would draw on and contest.

    Songhai

    Map of the Songhai Empire. HetmanTheResearcher, CC BY-SA 4.0, via Wikimedia Commons.

    The last and among the largest of the great Sudanic empires rose from within Mali’s shadow and eventually consumed it.

    Songhai centred on Gao in the Niger bend, a city that had been a significant commercial centre for centuries before the empire’s rise. Initially a tributary state under Mali, Songhai began asserting independence in the mid-15th century under Sunni Ali Ber, a military commander of exceptional energy who spent nearly three decades in almost continuous campaigning, capturing Timbuktu in 1468 and Jenne in 1473 and turning the Niger river into Songhai’s internal highway. Sunni Ali understood something that his predecessors had sometimes neglected: control of the river meant control of the grain trade that fed the cities of the Sudan, which meant leverage over the urban populations and scholarly classes on which commercial empires depended.

    His successor, Askia Muhammad, who seized power in 1493 and built the empire’s administrative and intellectual infrastructure, brought Timbuktu to its peak. By the late 15th century, Timbuktu held a population that contemporary sources estimated at up to 100,000 people. The Sankore Mosque alone had 25,000 students. The city imported books from across North Africa and the Middle East and produced its own manuscript tradition that scholars are still cataloguing today. Askia Muhammad undertook his own famous hajj in 1496, arriving in Cairo and Mecca with gold but also with political questions: he sought a fatwa from the Egyptian scholar al-Suyuti legitimising his deposition of Sunni Ali’s dynasty. Religion and political authority were inseparable, and the caliphs and scholars of the east were the sources of legitimacy that Sudanic rulers sought.

    Songhai’s collapse came suddenly. In 1591, a Moroccan army under Judar Pasha crossed the Sahara with something no Sudanic army had yet faced: firearms. At the Battle of Tondibi on the Niger, Moroccan muskets and cannon scattered a Songhai cavalry force many times larger. It was the first use of firearms south of the Sahara in a major engagement, and it exposed a structural vulnerability that the military architecture of the savanna empires had never needed to address before. Songhai fragmented. The Moroccan forces could conquer but not administer an empire of that scale from their North African base. The Sudan entered a period of political fragmentation that would define it for the following century.

    Kanem-Bornu: The Ancient State of the Central Sudan

    Kanem-Bornu at its greatest extent by Megartonius, CC0, via Wikimedia Commons.

    While Wagadu, Mali and Songhai rose and fell in the western Sudan, a different political tradition took root in the east and proved more durable than any of them.

    The state centred on Lake Chad, known first as Kanem and later as Bornu, appears in Arabic sources as early as the 9th century. The Dugawa dynasty that founded it controlled the central trans-Saharan corridor running through the Fezzan in modern Libya, connecting the Mediterranean directly to the Lake Chad basin and the agricultural lands to its south and west. Where the western Sudan empires built their power on the gold routes, Kanem-Bornu built on a different set of commodities: enslaved people, ivory and natron, the sodium carbonate mineral used across the Arab world for soap-making, food preservation and glass production.

    Islam arrived at the Kanem court around the 11th century, making it one of the earliest Muslim polities in Africa south of the Sahara. The conversion was not merely spiritual. It gave Kanem’s rulers access to the networks of Islamic scholarship, commerce and political legitimacy that connected the Sudan to the wider Muslim world. The Mai sent students to study in North Africa and brought back scholars to staff his administration. He corresponded with the Sultan of Morocco and the rulers of Egypt as a fellow Muslim sovereign. Islam provided the institutional language through which Kanem-Bornu organised its bureaucracy, justified its laws, and conducted its diplomacy.

    That bureaucracy proved extraordinarily resilient. The state survived internal rebellions, external invasions. The realm persisted after the forced relocation of its capital from Kanem, east of the lake, to Bornu, west of it in the 14th century, a massive institutional disruption that most states would not have survived. It survived the disruptions of the 16th century that destroyed Songhai. It adapted, reformed, and persisted across ten centuries of continuous existence, making it arguably the most durable state institution in West African history.

    That durability rested on a resource base that demands honest accounting. Bornu was not merely complicit in the trans-Saharan slave trade. For long periods, it organised and profited from it at scale. The state taxed the movement of enslaved people northward through its territory. Elite households depended on enslaved labour for agriculture, craft production and domestic work. Military expansion into the territories to the south and west was partly organised around the capture of people who would be sold northward or retained within the state economy. This was not an aberration imposed on an otherwise pristine political economy. The capture of people was structurally embedded in how Bornu accumulated and distributed surplus, how its ruling class maintained itself, and how it funded the military capacity that kept it intact. A history that omits this is not an honest history.

    Bornu’s influence radiated westward into Hausaland across many centuries. The political vocabulary of the Hausa city-states carries the fingerprints of this contact. The title Ciroma, used in Hausa courts for a senior ranked position, is a Kanuri borrowing from Bornu. Galadima, another major Hausa title, has the same eastern roots. The Bayajidda foundational legend, which we will examine carefully in the next essay, routes the origin of the Hausa states through Bornu for reasons that are not accidental. Bornu was the dominant power of the central Sudan for most of the period in which the Hausa city-states were forming their institutions. Its administrative models, its Islamic scholarly networks, and its commercial relationships all shaped what Hausaland became. The reign of Mai Idris Alooma was the Apogee of the polity and it would slowly decline in the centuries following his reign. I will cover his reign with the care it deserves in its own essay.

    Bornu’s power and influence would wane over the centuries, driven by shifting trade routes, environmental changes and the rise of powerful rivals like the Usmanid/Sokoto Caliphate. The state met its end in 1900, when Rabeh Zubayr, a Sudanese warlord and former slave soldier who had carved his way across the central Sudan with a disciplined firearms-equipped army, besieged and destroyed the Bornu capital. Rabeh’s conquest coincided almost exactly with the arrival of French colonial forces from the west and British forces from the south. The three-way collision finished what a millennium of rivals had failed to do. Bornu, which had outlasted Wagadu, Mali and Songhai by centuries, fell not to any single force but to the specific conjuncture of the 1890s, when the internal disruption of Rabeh’s campaign intersected with the external pressure of European colonial conquest at the worst possible moment.

    Our merchant from Sijilmasa, had he lived long enough and travelled far enough east, would have recognised the world of Bornu: the same logic of transit taxation, the same integration of Islamic commercial law into the fabric of trade, the same cities growing wealthy at the junction of ecological zones. But he would also have noticed something different about the political terrain further west, in the territory that Bornu influenced but did not control. A cluster of city-states, each independent, each competitive, each building its own institutions and its own commercial networks. Fragmented where Bornu was unified. Commercially distributed where Bornu was centrally administered. Younger in its political consolidation but extraordinarily dynamic.

    Why Any of this Matters

    The empires described in this essay did not exist in a separate, sealed-off past with no connection to the present. They were the product of specific material conditions, specific ecological positions, and institutional choices made over centuries. Wagadu’s wealth stemmed from the trans-Saharan trade, Songhai’s internal highway was the Niger river, and Bornu’s millennium-long anchor was the Lake Chad basin; these assets did not vanish with the empires’ demise. The geography remained. The ecological logic endured. Trade routes remained, at least until colonial borders, railway lines and artificial tariff walls were drawn through them.

    What changed was who controlled them and in whose interest they operated.

    The colonial partition of the 1880s and 1890s did not encounter an empty or stagnant landscape. It encountered the successor states of a thousand years of Sudanic political development, states that had survived the collapse of Songhai, the disruption of the trans-Saharan routes, and centuries of internal competition. What colonialism did was reorganise that landscape. It redirected trade routes toward coastal ports and away from the Saharan corridors that had sustained the interior for centuries. Wherever it preserved certain institutions, the emirate system in northern Nigeria being the most consequential example, it did so in forms useful to administrators rather than local populations. It created borders that cut through the agricultural zones, pastoral routes and commercial networks that the ecological logic of the region had generated over centuries. And it extracted resources with none of the internal redistribution, however unequal and often brutal, that the older state systems had practised. The Sahelian Juntas claim to have seized power to right those wrongs, but only time will tell.

    Captain Ibrahim Traore, Military Leader of Burkina Faso. Source Bamjo226, CC0, via Wikimedia Commons.

    The coup belt is the inheritance of that reorganisation. The states collapsing today did not build on the institutional foundations of Wagadu, Mali, or Bornu. They were built on colonial administrative frameworks that prioritised control over capacity, extraction over development, and the convenience of outside powers over the coherence of local political economies. The Sahel crisis is not evidence that this region cannot sustain complex political life. The record described in this essay is the evidence against that claim. It is evidence that the specific political structures imposed over the last century have failed, and that understanding why requires going further back than the coups, further back than independence, further back than colonialism itself.

    That is the work of this series: https://thesahelianrecord7.substack.com/

    Feature Image: Jillian Amatt – Artistic Voyages on Unsplash

    Sources:

    Al-Bakri, Kitāb al-Masālik wa-al-Mamālik (Book of Routes and Realms), c. 1068, in Basil Davidson, The African Past (Penguin Books, 1966), p. 81

    Brooks, George E., Landlords and Strangers: Ecology, Society, and Trade in Western Africa, 1000–1630 (Westview Press, 1993)

    Hunwick, John O., Timbuktu and the Songhay Empire (Brill, 1999)

    Last, Murray, The Sokoto Caliphate (Longmans, 1967)

    Levtzion, Nehemia, Ancient Ghana and Mali (Methuen, 1973)

    Levtzion, Nehemia and J.F.P. Hopkins (eds.), Corpus of Early Arabic Sources for West African History (Cambridge University Press, 1981)

    Lovejoy, Paul E., Salt of the Desert Sun (Cambridge University Press, 1986)

    Lovejoy, Paul E., Transformations in Slavery: A History of Slavery in Africa (Cambridge University Press, 1983)

    Lovejoy, Paul E., Caravans of Kola (Ahmadu Bello University Press, 1980)

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    Webb, James L.A. Jr., Desert Frontier: Ecological and Economic Change Along the Western Sahel, 1600–1850 (University of Wisconsin Press, 1995)

  • Girl Without Mercy

    My father was a French lumberjack. That’s just a joke. People don’t always know I’m joking. Especially men. They laugh when I’m being serious, then nod or look blank when, well… guess I’m not too good at telling jokes. Now, I know how to act funny. On camera, I mean. In character. From the inside out. If that’s funny, then okay. Wish I could be funny in real life. Witty! I want to be thought witty, but most men look more like they’re waiting for me to get my tits out.

    There I go again, sorry. I’ll be good. Doris Day good. Promise we’ll stick to words you’re allowed to print. What was it you asked me?

    Right… Dad. My father could’ve been anyone, anybody in the whole wide world. When I found out Sylvie is French for of the forest, I figured Mom must’ve shacked up with a French guy, like maybe French Canadian, you know? Because she lived up in Washington State for a while. Before I was born.  She’s not from there. She’s kind of from everywhere. Or nowhere.  But since she did live there, I figured she got mixed up with some forest ranger. Or something. Something to do with trees. Et voila! Sylvie. That was a joke too, by the way. I’ll warn you about the jokes. Maybe, if you wouldn’t mind, you could laugh a little bit?  I mean if you want to. Et voila!

    Once a reporter, not a journalist like yourself, some sleazy newshound, snuck into the hospital to ask Mom who my father was. They say she said, with perfect serenity, that it was her left bedroom slipper. Those were nice soft slippers. Powder blue. I make sure she has nice things.

    Now where was I? Oh yeah… my dad. It’s a fact that all girls are attracted to their fathers, isn’t it? Where that leaves me, I don’t know. Wait, you wanted to ask me about Johnny.

    Johnny was… wow! Valiant. How come that word’s gone out of style? I’m not the only girl who likes valiant, am I? Like, someone who’d come to your rescue? He was no bedroom slipper, I’ll tell you. Had those old-fashioned English manners that make a girl swoon. Of course, the first time I saw him, Johnny was wearing a suit of armour. That was his role in the picture we made together. There he was. A knight in shining armour among the dress racks. I didn’t stand a chance.

    In the movie, I’m this mythical creature, like a fairy-elf, who meets the knight in a summer meadow. And she seduces him!  I did loads to prepare for the role.  Read everything I could find on elves before I had lunch with Hiram, the director. Over the shrimp cocktails, I explained to him how I was going to need special makeup, because elves have oversized eyes and small, pointed ears. I had made a couple sketches. He pushed those sketches right back across the table and gave me a look over his glasses.

    “Syl, Cookie,” Hiram said, “your adoring public are not paying their seventy cents to see you prancing around in a pair of pointy ears.  They’re paying to see Sylvie Davenport. America’s wet dream.” Seeing me droop down, arms crossed over my chest, he said, “It’s a compliment, Cookie.”

    So, they made me up to look the way I always look. Only with longer hair. I wore a sort of gypsy costume. Johnny had to string garlands of flowers in my hair. Around my neck, my waist. The warm summer meadow we were supposed to be in was really Sound Stage Four. Johnny’s breath smelled like sardines. And the garlands were plastic flowers with wire. They snagged my skin.

    But there’s this thing I do, once the camera is on. A place I go inside myself. Where the flowers are real. The sky is a true sky and everything is marvellous. So marvellous I almost can’t stand it. My eyes become like broken windows, with all the light and wind rushing through. People love me. I just have to look at you. You’ll love me. Like he did.

    Johnny followed me into my dressing room after. Pressed himself up against me. He said, “Sorry about the kippers.” No kidding, that’s what he said.

    I stared up into his blue eyes. His noble face. “That’s alright. I like sardines.” Which I don’t, but I didn’t want to break the spell. “Kippers aren’t sardines, they’re herrings,” he said softly. Then he kissed me. He, Johnny, kissed me, Syl. Which was different from the knight kissing the fairy. Mainly in that there was more tongue.

    That was the start. We were together for seven months. Oh, here, take one of mine. There’s an ashtray there, right by your elbow. You want a drink or anything? I make a mean martini. Sure? Have to butter you up, don’t I? Otherwise, you might write nasty things about me.  Aww, that’s sweet of you. You’re nice, too.

    When he spoke, his mouth hardly moved.  I used to kid him it was because he was trying not to spit out all those marbles. He said shag instead of fuck… of course that cracked me up. Johnny liked to quote Shakespeare…and the Greeks. Which was all Greek to me! Oh good, you got that one? See? I can be funny!

    He was a wonderful lover. Passionate. With lots of stamina for a guy his age. That first time, he crushed those stupid plastic flowers. It was heaven.

    “God, you’re amazing,” Johnny said to me once… in bed. “It’s like you have no bones.  Those breasts, that belly, the great big thighs – “

    “Hey!  My thighs aren’t fat!”

    “No, not fat, they’re perfect. All that soft flesh.  It’s like riding a cloud.” He took a drag off his cigarette, slipped it between my lips. I sucked in some smoke, while he twisted a handful of my hair around his knuckles. “All these golden locks…”

    “It’s not natural. The golden…”

    “Well, yes I noticed, but oh Sylvie.”  Eyes on the ceiling, he said, “You’re like America itself. Completely uncomplicated. Open. Welcoming. Saying, Come on in….”

    Okay, Johnny talked a lot of shit. Sorry. He talked a load of baloney, but his accent made it sound less silly.

    Was I in love? I’m always in love. All the time. I wake up, first person I see, I want to paint sunrises. Just for them. My heart comes cheap, you know. But Johnny, he was like an answer to a prayer I hadn’t even got round to praying yet. I felt safe with him. Until I didn’t.

    Know what was funny? He always wanted to go to Chasen’s. I had my own booth there. We went at least twice a week. Johnny didn’t even like American food. But he was always dying to go. So, I’d get all dolled up, and we’d go. The minute our car pulled up, bang! Photographers. Every time. You’ve seen the pictures. Me and Johnny, under the awning at Chasen’s. Me smiling. Showing a little leg. I could pose like that in my sleep. Johnny glaring at the cameras. Clutching my arm. That wasn’t play-acting, by the way. I’d have bruises the next day from him holding on so tight. He hated that whole scene. So, I could never understand why he wanted to go in the first place.

    Life Magazine sent a photographer to my house to take pictures of me in my kitchen. Me stirring a pot. Me staring into the oven. Me chopping carrots. You know the kind of thing.  About how I’m really an ordinary person. How I cook for my man like any normal girl does. Fact is, I am a pretty good cook. Betty, one of my foster moms, taught me. Betty was great to me, but her husband Jim, he…he paid a little too much attention to me. So, I had to leave. But I remember everything she taught me. Dan… the Life photographer… he was surprised I even knew how to turn on my oven. This is another thing: I’m not supposed to be witty, and I’m not supposed to know how to make a pot roast. I don’t know who made these rules. So, I said to Dan, “Actually, you’d be lucky if I made you dinner.”

    “I sure as heck would be,” he said with a grin. He had a sweet, Mickey Rooney sort of face, so he could get away with being flirty.

    “I mean it!” I tapped his arm. “I’m an excellent cook. I’d adore to have someone to make dinner for, but Johnny likes to go out. Well, you know.” Dan had snapped us outside Chasen’s so many times.

    “Poor little movie star,” he chuckled, tucking his camera back inside its case. “But you know, if you were my girl, I’d wanna show you off too.”

    “Oh, he hates all that stuff.  Posing for you guys drives Johnny crazy.”

    “Syl?  How do you think we all know to be there when you get outta your car?”

    My stomach sort of dropped. “Beats me.”

    “He tips us off. His assistant phones up every magazine, every newspaper. She tells us where you’re going. That’s how.”

    “But that doesn’t make any… If Johnny wants his picture taken, why does he get so mad?”

    “Maybe because he’s not the main attraction?  If you weren’t there, we wouldn’t bother.” Slinging his camera bag over a shoulder he says to me, “I’ll be going. Listen, Syl…  uh, Miss Davenport. Thanks a lot. We got some great shots today.”

    “Well, that’s down to you.”

    “Nah, it’s all you.” And Dan was out the door.

    In our movie, Johnny strips his armour off to lie in the grass with his head in my lap. This is the seduction bit. I feed him berries I’ve gathered myself that stain his lips. Bread with wild honey dribbling down, glistening on his knightly chin. My line is, “I love thee true.” I tried different ways of saying it, to make it sound more natural. In the end what worked best was to almost throw the line away. To say it like it was the most obvious thing in the world. I love you; I was made to love you. She’s a fairy, and I think in her mind she has been sent to him. To love him. Help him. She has magic that makes plants grow, makes summer out of winter, and all she wants is to do the same for her knight. To bring back the summertime of his life.

    So, while he’s eating her food and feeling the sun on his skin… while all that’s going on, she sings to him. This little fairy song about love, the blue sky and tra-la-la. They were thinking they’d dub it, but I practiced a lot and, in the end, they used my voice. The song is a spell. As she sings, all the lines disappear from the knight’s face. His hair goes from grey to a warm brown that Gordon, the hairdresser, mixed just for Johnny. And then the knight gets all virile and sexy. It’s my favourite part of the picture. Not for the sexy bit, but the way she’s able to make him feel young again. Like his best self. Shouldn’t love be able to do that?

    The reviews were awful.

    I’ve gotten bad notices before, but these were really stink-a-roo. Thou Hast Made a Flop, is one headline that hurt. They weren’t gonna buy my talking all thee and thy. I feel like if someone could’ve coached me on that, I would’ve got the hang of it. Hiram always said there wasn’t time. Hey… At least they didn’t pan my singing!

    But poor Johnny. Nymph and Gnome in Garden Frolic was the tag line that stuck. Variety said he looked more like my father than a lover. That he should trade in his sword for a walking stick. That it’d take a team of fairies, weaving spells night and day, to make John Sampson Law leading man material again.

    Johnny said it didn’t matter. But it was right around this time he started bruising my arm outside Chasen’s. Then if the photos appeared with the caption, Nymph and Gnome, he’d break things. A glass ashtray. Souvenir plate from San Francisco. A framed photo of my mom. Once he punched a hole in the wall. Right there, by the patio door. Plaster dust drifted down like snow. And so all of a sudden, he started laughing. Worst sound I ever heard. The breaking and punching were easier to bear than that. That laugh.

    I’d hide. Well, not hide exactly. I’d go into the bedroom. Sit on the floor and smoke. I’ve sat on a lot of floors in a lot of bedrooms. Listening for the breaking to stop, or the car to drive away. Guess what I keep wishing for is that there might be a someone somewhere who will want to sit on the floor with me. Someone who can stand me when I’m scared, or crying, or smoking too many…no, wait. Don’t write that down. That’s not… I don’t mean to make too much of it. Everyone has their blue days, right?  Even here, in sunny Los Angeles. Sometimes I wish it’d rain so I could mix a pitcher of martinis and have a good cry. This weather is a lot to live up to.

    Still, we had our good days, Johnny and me. Had some laughs. Sometimes he’d use one of his funny expressions, like don’t get your knickers in a twist and I’d giggle. He’d beam like he won an Oscar. And I’d think, okay. I can do this.

    The last time we were out in public together was that premiere last Christmas. What was the name of that movie?  The Brave Men of… Something or Other. For publicity, the studio had invited some soldiers to watch the picture. The armistice thingy had happened that summer.  So, these were the first boys back home from Korea. They were under the marquee, in their uniforms, posing for photos when we got there. So fresh. So bright and alive. Cheeks like apples. You couldn’t look away from them. Then they saw me, and started chanting. “Syl! Syl! Syl!” Oh, they were boys! But boys with big men’s voices. Shouting my name as I walked right into the middle of them. It was like they each had their own separate engine running inside. The heat. The purr. And all talking at once. Flashbulbs popping all over the place.  I’m smiling. Touching one on the elbow. Another on the shoulder. Cradling one’s face like he was my son, another like my kid brother. “You glad the war is over? Glad to be back home?” Yes, they said, and it was lovely. So sweet, to see how happy they were. It was all so…vivid. I’ll never, ever forget it.

    The crowd started moving, what with everyone going into the theatre. Thinking Johnny had gone in ahead, I was surprised to see him still behind me. Still at the curb, where the car had dropped us off. Just standing there, on his own. Heading over to him, I saw something in his face.  He was white. Eyes blazing. I held out my hand but he wrinkled his nose at it. As if it was rotting meat on a stick. Then he leaned in and hissed into my ear, “Why don’t you just shag them all?” My face went hot. Like I’d been slapped. He smiled that vicious smile of his. Turned and walked away. I watched him go, hands jammed in his tuxedo jacket pockets.  Johnny walked right down the street. No one recognised him. No one noticed him at all.

    When I got home that night, he was here. Sitting here, in the living room. In the dark. Except for the Christmas tree lights blinking on and off, like they do. They’d blink on, and in this reddish light, I saw his face, and his knuckles gripping the arms of his chair. Then they’d blink off and I couldn’t see him at all. I remember thinking it seemed like the scene of an accident. You know, when you pass one on the road? Squad cars, an ambulance. Red and blue lights flashing. I sat down on the sofa. Didn’t even take off my coat.

    “I’ve been having this dream.”  He started as if he was in the middle of a story. “And in this dream… well. I don’t want to upset you, Syl.”

    “I won’t be upset.” My legs were pressed together. Hands on knees, I could feel the cool sheen of my stockings.

    “That’s right.You’re really very strong, aren’t you? Stout Yankee stock. Whereas I…”  He stopped talking and the lights flashed off.

    “Are you sick, Johnny?”

    Again, the laugh. Like a donkey with a chest cold. “Not at all! Kind of you to be concerned. I only meant that I’m old. Very. Very. Old.”

    Then silence, woolly thick. I had a thousand different answers at the ready…  No, you’re not. Don’t be silly. Come here and I’ll make you feel young again. I’d used all of these on him before, and they had mostly worked. This time though, I just couldn’t manage it. I was hurt.  But it wasn’t only that. I was waiting to see how bad this was going to get.

    “So, in this dream,” he said, “you come home from some gay, glittering Hollywood gig. You float in, just as you have tonight. You’re perfect. All hair. Teeth. And tits. That sexy little wiggle when you walk. Wearing some champagne coloured, tighter-than-fuck frock leaving little to the imagination. Because why should it?  Nothing about you, My Darling, is engineered to appeal to Man’s mind. Your aim is…somewhat lower.”

    Johnny was pale. His forehead sweating. And I was holding onto my knee so hard I could feel my nails making half-moons in the flesh.

    “Everything on display. What are shop windows for? Let’s get those punters in!  This is, after all, America.” Arms open as Jolson singing Mammy, the ruddy light made Johnny’s features grotesque.

    “Why weren’t you at the party with me?”

    “Because I’m not wanted.  I’ve got grey pubes and I quote King Lear.  I don’t fit. But you!  You fit right in, and every man fits right in you. And I do mean every man, Syl. I could smell them off you. You came to me. In your frock. You kissed me. And I smelled their spunk on your pretty neck. Tasted it. In your pretty mouth.”

    “I’m going to bed.”

    “Oh no you’re not.”  He stood up, throwing the shadow of a giant on the wall. He was leaning over me, his hands on my shoulders. I couldn’t move. Couldn’t stop looking at his face. His long, noble face. So haggard now. The last thing he’d broken in my house was himself. Into a hundred un-mendable pieces.

    Then Johnny said, “They warned me about you.”

    In our movie, there are ghosts. Two kings, in jewel encrusted crowns and velvet robes. Two knights in full armour but for their helmets, which they carry under their arms. Two who I think are supposed to be princes… tights and swords and shining hair. They appear to Johnny. That is, to his character, when he wakes up in the morning to find I’m gone. He stumbles down to the edge of this pond, rubbing his eyes. Looking around the whole time like he’s wondering where I am. He kneels in the mud to splash cold water on his face. In the close-up, we see droplets beading on his majestic brow as his blue eyes widen in surprise.

    The ghosts are on the far side of the pond. You know right away they’re ghosts because they’re very pale, with dark staring eyes and black, toothless holes where their mouths should be. They appear out of nowhere. This is why Johnny’s character looks so surprised. They start calling out to Johnny, something like, “Beware!  Beware!  She’s got you under her spell!”

    Basically, the ghosts are my ex-boyfriends doing a spooky version of you’re better off without her, Pal. You’d be surprised how many of my movies end like that.  Or maybe you wouldn’t.  I’m bad news, right?

    So, I asked him, “Who, Johnny? Who warned you? About what? What did they say about me?”

    His fingers were drilling down into my shoulders and his breath was hot and stank of booze.  And just when I thought I’d scream, he started saying one word, over and over, in this weird stage whisper.  Just one word, while Johnny’s face turned redder and redder.

    Beware.

    Beware.

    Beware.

    Then he stood, opened his arms again and bellowed, “Beware the girl without mercy!”

    “For God’s sake, Johnny, it was only a movie.”

    He stood right there, in the middle of the room, and he laughed.  Laughed his horrible laugh at me and said, “And I am merely a ghost.” I stood up. Still tall in my heels, and turned to go upstairs. Locked my bedroom door, and cried myself to sleep.

     

    That was it for us. In the morning Johnny was gone, and we never spoke again. Yeah, just about a year ago now. I haven’t got around to putting up a tree this year. It’s a hassle, isn’t it, all that ‘deck the halls’ stuff? I’m not really in the spirit this year.

    When I heard about his heart attack, I remembered the way his face went all red that night.  And I wondered… I mean, if he was already sick, that might sort of explain? I don’t know.  Maybe not. What else can I tell you? We were happy. For a while.

    No, really, thanks so much for coming. Hope it was okay. Hope I gave you what you need. I’m always nervous until the article comes out! I’m sure it’ll be fine.

    I’m actually going away in January. To Korea. Some of our fellas are still over there, and they’ve asked me to go do a few shows for the troops. Not sure what I’ll do. Thinking I might sing a few songs? I mean I’m no Rosemary Clooney, but I can carry a tune. Well, enough that they won’t throw stuff at me.

    I just think it might be good, you know? How can you be lonely with all those beautiful boys around you?  How can you be sad? With all that youth? All that life?

    Feature Image from the 1928 move Dry Martini.

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